Kuv Claire Anastas, ib leej niam ntawm ob tug me nyuam, ob ntxhais thiab ob tug tub. Peb nyob hauv lub tsev no, ncig nyob rau peb sab los ntawm ib tug cuaj-meter Phab Ntsa, nrog kaum-plaub cov neeg nrog rau cuaj cov me nyuam thiab kuv niam nyob rau hauv txoj cai lij choj uas yog muaj mob thiab muaj rheumatism. Tsuas yog ib sab qhib, nrog NW nyuam qhuav twg lub hnub tuaj los ntawm nws. Thaum zaum nyob rau hauv lub chav ua noj kuv pom peb cov phab ntsa. Cov tub rog yog mus tsim ib tug thib plaub ib, nyob rau hauv nruab nrab ntawm lawv mus pw hav zoov. As we live nearby Rachel’s Tomb, peb lub tsev yog raug mob loj heev cov tub rog ntsuas. Peb lub khws - ob rau tsev accessories thiab lwm ob rau tsheb mechanics - nyob rau hauv qab no nyob rau hauv lub tsev. Lawv raug kaw, tsis muaj lag luam. Nyob rau hauv pem hauv ntej ntawm peb lub tsev siv los yuav lub ntsiab txoj kev mus rau Npelehees. Nws yog lub richest cheeb tsam ntawm Npelehees no tab sis tam sim no nws yog ib tug me me txaus ntshai qhov chaw. Peb tsis muaj cov neeg nyob ze; peb cia li nyob nrog ob tsev neeg nyob rau ntawm peb tus kheej. Peb yog kaw; we are buried alive in a tomb.

Thaum lub sij hawm xyoo ntawm lub thib ob Intifada, peb twb ua neej nyob dhau ntau siab. Nyob rau hauv 2002, muaj yog ib tug ntau ntawm shooting. Peb nyob hauv ib tug ntoo khaublig tua hluav taws. Nws muaj high hauj lwm nyob ib ncig ntawm peb lub tsev, thiab cov tub rog nyob rau lawv. People were shooting at them from different directions.

Kuv cov menyuam twb tuag tes tuag taw ntawm kev ntshai thiab yuav tsis txawm siv lawv txhais tes. Thaum lub sij hawm ib co ntawm cov shootings lub bullets nkag rau peb lub tsev. Peb tsis paub tias nyob qhov twg los nkaum; peb tsis paub tias qhov twg mus. Qhov teeb meem lasted ib xyoos. Txhua hmo kuv cov menyuam twb tos thaum shooting yuav pib. Lawv qw, "Tam sim no yog lub sij hawm rau shooting, peb tsis xav kom pw tsaug zog nyob rau hauv peb txaj. "Peb tau mus pw tsaug zog nyob rau hauv pem teb, nyob ze ntawm lub qhov rooj. Rau ntawm peb koom pw uake muaj, Pw tsis tsaug zog nyob rau hauv hnab, tom ntej no mus rau txhua lub lwm. Our oldest girl slept on a chair.

Since five years we don’t have any work. Peb ua lag ua luam lub neej puas nres. Ob lub xyoo dhau peb yuav tsis txhawb nqa nws. Ob xyoos dhau los lawv txiav cov hluav taws xob rau plaub lub hlis vim hais tias peb yuav tsis tau them tus nqi. Peb ncua lub xov hlau los ntawm kuv tus tij laug nyob rau hauv cov cai lub tsev thiaj li muaj hluav taws xob tsawg kawg yog rau yam tseem ceeb xws li lub ntug thiab lwm yam tseem ceeb lub tsev khoom siv. Nyob rau hauv 2002 kuv tus txiv txiav nws txhais tes. Nws thiaj li poob siab txog qhov teeb meem no. Thaum lub sij hawm nws pib noj cov nuj nqi ntau. Es tsis txhob kho lub tsheb nws txiav nws txhais tes. Nws txhais tes yog tam sim no ib txwm mob; ib nrab ntawm nws yog tuag tes tuag taw. Pawg ntseeg muab ib tug me ntsis kev pab, like our children as schools which reduced the fees.

Ib qho ntawm peb cov me nyuam, 13 xyoo, tau txais ob kab mob nyob rau hauv nws ob txhais ceg vim hais tias cov neeg ua hauj lwm raug khawb rau kav dej phwj kav thaum tshem rau hauv av rau lub tsev ntawm lub phab ntsa. Nws ob txhais ceg yog rhiab rau hmoov av thiab xuab zeb. Kuv xa nws mus tsib kws kho mob. Pib lawv tsis paub dab tsi nws yog. Nws ntsia ib tug tshiab hom ntawm tus kab mob. Txawm tias tshuaj tua kab mob, nws tsis tau txais zoo thaum lub sij hawm 1.5 lub hlis lawv twb khawb muaj. Kuv nug ib tug thoob ntiaj teb uas yog nyob rau hauv ib tug mus coj dej los ntawm lub hiav txwv tuag. Uas pab, kom txog rau thaum tam sim no tus kab mob tsis tau tuaj rov qab. Now he can wear his shoes normally.

Nws yog tsis zoo no. Peb muaj cia ib tug ua si hauv av tab sis leej twg xav mus ua si nrog ib tug cuaj-'meter' qib high Phab ntsa ib ncig ntawm? Lwm cov niam txiv yuav xa tau lawv cov me nyuam nyob rau ib lub tsheb npav mus txawv tebchaws, tab sis rau peb, xa 7-8 cov me nyuam yog heev kim, raws li peb donat xav nyiam ib txhia ntawm peb cov me nyuam saum toj no rau lwm. Yog li ntawd, kuv kom kuv cov me nyuam nyob rau hauv tib cheeb tsam, cia li sab hauv lub koog tsev kawm ntawv Npelehees. Hais tias yog phem. Lawv yuav tsum txaus siab rau lub caij ntuj sov, lub hnub so, raws li nyob rau hauv tej lub neej ib txwm, lawv yuav tsum ua luam dej. Now they just go around and visit our families.

Peb tos rau peb lub khws qhib tab sis kuv tam sim no tsis muaj kev cia siab. Neeg ntshai mus xyuas no cov tub rog cheeb tsam. Txawm peb tsev neeg yog ntshai them peb mus ntsib. Kuv cov me nyuam yog deprived ntawm muaj cov phooj ywg tuaj raws, los ntawm lwm cov me nyuam ua si nrog lawv. Txhua lub sij hawm muaj li ntawd-hu ua xwm ceev checkpoints teem los ntawm lub pab tub rog. Kuv tug kheej, plaub hnub dhau los, yog tsis muaj peev xwm nkag mus rau kuv lub tsev. Lawv kaw qhov chaw ntawd rau ib tug Jewish rooj mov; kev ntseeg Jews tuaj mus thov Vajtswv nyob Rachelas ntxa. Kuv tau mus coj kuv tus txiv nrog lub tsheb, kuv cov me nyuam nyob rau hauv lub tsev. Tsis muaj ib tug hais rau peb hais tias lawv kaw lub cheeb tsam. Thaum kuv rov qab mus nrog kuv tus txiv ib tug loj cheeb tsam ib ncig ntawm lub tsev raug kaw. Kuv sim mus rau lub qhov rooj nyob rau hauv lub tub rog nyob ze lub hauv paus. Kuv hais lus nrog cov tub rog muaj, tos rau ob lub sij hawm nyob rau hauv cov tub rog sib txawv teeb meem. Ib high-kab sab tub ceev xwm tuaj tawm ntawm ib lub tsheb, thiab hais rau peb mus deb. aWhy yog koj tuaj ntawm no?AE nws hais. Kuv hais rau nws, qhov no yog kuv lub tsev. Kuv pom nws mus rau nws. Kuv qhia nws tias kuv yuav tsum nkag mus pw tsaug zog ntawm no. Kuv qhia nws tias kuv cov tub ntxhais hluas cov me nyuam; hais tias lawv tos rau kuv. Nws hais rau kuv tias hais tias lawv yuav saib xyuas ntawm lawv tus kheej. Nws yog ib qho zoo kawg. Kuv hais rau nws, "Nyob qhov twg kuv muaj mus, Kuv yuav tau mus pw tsaug zog nyob rau hauv kuv lub tsev!AE Nws hais tias, aTurn ib ncig,"Nyob rau hauv Hebrew. Nws hais rau cov tub rog nyob rau ntawm lub qhov rooj, "Tsis txhob cia lawv nyob twj ywm ntawm no, lawv yuav tsum mus tam sim ntawd. "Cov tub rog nyob rau ntawm lub qhov rooj sawv raws li yog hais tias khov thiab tsis tau ua dab tsi, as if he did not want to follow this inhuman order.

Peb twb xav mus rau hauv lub Nativity Square, los rau cov ntseeg, thov tsaug zog muaj. Tom qab tag nrho, nws yog ib tag hmo, txhua leej txhua tus koom pw uake. Tom qab ntawd kuv hu rau kuv tus tij laug, leej twg hais kom kuv tuaj tshaj sai sai thiab pw tsaug zog nyob rau hauv nws lub tsev rau. Thaum kuv hu rau kuv tus me nyuam, kuv tub nug kom pw tsaug zog nyob rau hauv kuv lub txaj, ua ke nrog nws tus muam hlob, thiaj li mus xav ntau xis. Kuv tus kwv nyob rau hauv txoj cai lij choj hais kom tom ntej no thaum sawv ntxov cov tub rog cov thawj coj kom peb nkag mus. Peb twb lig rau pawg ntseeg thiab kuv xav kom thov Vajtswv. Muaj ib tug tseem kaw. Kuv tus kwv nyob rau hauv txoj cai hais kom lawv rau txoj kev hlub tshua, thiab cia rau peb mus nyob rau hauv thiab tawm. Ib tug txheeb ze tuag thiab peb yuav tsum tau tuaj koom lub faus. Finally we were allowed to enter our house.

Lub ntsiab teeb meem yog tias kuv cov me nyuam raug kev txom nyem ntau. Lawv feem ntau quaj. Lawv donat xav hais tias lawv muaj yav tom ntej. Cov Phab Ntsa twb erected nyob rau hauv cia li muaj ib hnub. Nyob rau thaum sawv ntxov lawv tau muaj ib tug qub saib, nyob rau thaum yav tsaus ntuj lawv tau muaj tus phab ntsa nyob rau hauv pem hauv ntej. Lawv zaum tom ntej mus rau lub qhov rais thiab pib quaj thaum saib mus rau hauv Phab Ntsa. Yuav ua li cas yuav no Phab Ntsa tshwm li ntawd mam li nco dheev? Tshaj lub sij hawm lawv tau ua ntau ntshai. Lawv hais tias lawv cev nqaij daim tawv xav tias tab tom suffocated. Lawv xav tias siab los rau saum lawv lub mis. Lawv yeej los rau kuv thiab hais tias lawv yuav tsis txhawb nqa nws ntxiv lawm. When they watch TV they see children freely playing; lawv pom Walt Disney, lawv pom tau hais tias menyuam zoo siab. Lawv nug kuv xa lawv mus rau playgrounds zoo li ib tug zoo ua si. Kuv qhia rau lawv tias kuv sim tiam sis kuv yuav tsis muab lawv tej lus cog tseg. Tag nrho kuv cov me nyuam xav tias lawv lub neej yuav ua zuj zus nyob rau hauv lub neej yav tom ntej. Lawv yog cov paub, lawv yog cov ntse. Lawv muaj high qhab nia hauv tsev kawm ntawv, tab sis tom qab uas yus pom cov phab ntsa lawv cov qhab nia mus down, thiab kuv tsis tau ua dab tsi rau lawv. They cannot concentrate on their studying with this pressure inside them.

Kuv ntxhais ntawm 16 xyoo yog ib txwm ua twj ywm. Nws doesnat xav mus saib nyob rau hauv Phab Ntsa. Nws kaw nws ob lub qhov muag. Nws yuav tsis nkag siab nws. Txog tam sim no nws tsis hais dab tsi txog nws. Tus lwm cov me nyuam tab tom nrhiav nws nyob rau hauv. Cov yau tshaj ib, ntawm yim, hais tias, "Wow, nws yog zoo li no ib tug lub ntxa!"Kuv sim qhia rau kuv cov me nyuam hais tias Kuv yuav txhawb lawv los ntawm thov kev pab los ntawm ib tug kuj zoo kawg thiab lub hwj chim, ntawm cov thawj coj los ntawm txawv teb chaws, uas muaj lub hwj chim rau koj tsiv lub Ntsa. "Tsis txhob txhawj,"Kuv qhia rau lawv, "Kuv ua kuv qhov zoo tshaj plaws." Qhov no yog dab tsi muab lawv ib tug me ntsis ntawm kev cia siab. I don’t know what to do if no one asks about us.

Tus phooj ywg ntawm kuv cov me nyuam hais tias: Tsis txhob xav txog lub phab ntsa, sim kho kom nws mus txog rau thaum koj tsev neeg muaj peev xwm ua ib yam dab tsi txog nws. Lawv caw lawv, vim hais tias lawv tsis tau mus saib kuv cov me nyuam. Kuv hlob tus ntxhais yeej tsis xav kom muaj ib hnub yug tog. Nws xav tias tej zaum peb yuav npaj rau nws ntau tshaj li peb yuav them taus. Kuv nug nws, yog vim li cas? Nws tau hais tias, vim hais tias kuv txiv tsis muaj ua hauj lwm, thiab kuv donat xav muab nws nyob rau hauv ib lub nra. Nws cov phooj ywg hu kuv rau nws lub hnub yug, thiab lawv hais tias lawv yuav npaj txhua yam, hais tias lawv yuav ua ib tug surprise rau nws, thiab xav ntsib nws nyob rau tom tsev. Lawv coj ib tug ncuav mog qab zib thiab tej txiaj ntsim. Tom qab kuv tus ntxhais hais tias nws yog lub nicest xyoos txij li thaum xyoo. But then she started crying because she felt shy at the same time.

Txhais tau hais tias txoj kev ywj pheej rau kuv nyob hauv ib tug dawb lub teb chaws, tsis nyob rau hauv ib lub tawb nrog ib tug tsawg heev npaum li cas ntawm qhov chaw, tsis muaj tus uas yuav tsum tau ntawm nyob. Kuv xav hais tias kuv yuav mus txawv teb chaws, nrog kuv cov menyuam thiab tus txiv, thiab kuv niam nyob rau hauv txoj cai lij choj. Kuv yuav nco txog ntawm kev ywj pheej yog faus rau hauv lub dhau los. Vajtswv ua rau kuv mus rau. Peb yeej thov Vajtswv kom Vajtswv mus cuag cov neeg uas yuav pab peb nyob rau hauv thiaj li yuav tshem tawm no phab ntsa. Qhov no yog dab tsi kuv muab ib me ntsis tseg. Kuv tsuas xav nyob ib txwm lub neej. Thaum peb mus nyob ib ncig ntawm Npelehees los ntawm lub tsheb, koj pom zoo qhov chaw; we go maybe once every three or four months to such a place.

Raws li ib tug tub ntxhais hluas tus me nyuam, ua ntej thawj zaug Intifada, Kuv siv ua neej nyob ib tug zoo lub neej. Peb siv mus txhua txhia qhov chaw los ntawm peb lub tsheb, thiab yuav luag txhua txhua hnub mus rau Yeluxalees, vim hais tias peb nyob ze heev. Muaj ntau ntau ntawm cov chaw ua si muaj. Peb kuj tau mus rau lub Mediterranean, peb siv los mus muaj nyob rau thaum yav tsaus ntuj ua luam dej, thiab rov qab los thaum tsaus ntuj. Tus tuag hiav txwv kuj yog ze. Thaum kuv xav txog yav dhau los, Kuv xav thov txim rau kuv cov me nyuam vim kuv tsis tau muaj zoo nkauj tej yam rau lawv. Ua li ntawd kuv yuav tau mus tiv thaiv peb ntawm lub teb chaws, but it is hard for me and for my family to become a refugee.